to all my friends and family. I am so glad that I had the opportunity of motherhood. I am glad that my Mom chose that opportunity, too! However, now that all of my children have passed away it is a little bittersweet. I cry at all the Mother's Day commercials and wonder why? Why is it that none of my children are here to celebrate with me? Why do I not get the opportunity to be a grandmother? I am not feeling sorry for myself, though. I just wanted to share my feelings out loud.

KENNY CHESNEY IN 3-D

3 - D = Delightful, Darn good, Done right

April Birthday's

Happy Birthday, last Sunday April 11 to my big brother Dean. He turned 65 years young. Also, another Happy Birthday shout out to my little sister Jolene, on Sunday April 18th. I am not sure if she wants me to show her age, (but she will be 51 years young).

There are several other birthdays for those that are no longer here with us. Leonard's birthday April 13, My dad Victor's birthday April 26, Marc would have been 22 years old on April 28.

Wedding Anniversary

Happy 42nd Wedding Anniversary to my sister Lynda and her husband Rick. Thanks for always being there. In times of need and times for fun. It is great to have you and your family in my life.

Marching on

Well here it is March already. It will be my anniversary on the 20th, it will be 35 years and still going. I don't understand how it could be this many years, because it only seems like yesterday that we started dating. In fact my birthday prior to my Senior year of High School, I received luggage as a gift so that I could go away to college after graduation. Plans changed, in December at Christmas time Lyman came to visit me and home. From there we dated and starting getting serious. Then for graduation, Lyman asked me to be his wife. The next March we got married. It seems like life has a way of going through changes.

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

It was a celebration of Ryan's life

One year ago we had a viewing on this night. One year ago tomorrow we had a celebration of Ryan's short life. I know it was a funeral, but everyone that was there came to remember Ryan. I was so surprised at how many lives that Ryan had touched and the out pouring of love given by friends and family.

I do remember how it took my breathe away when the fireman stood at attention at Ryan's casket. Muscular Dystrophy is a horrible disease, but Ryan did have a special attachment to the fireman through the association he had with them during the fill the boot campaign. They had great compassion for him and what he was going through, we loved them all.

This year has been filled with a lot of changes in my life. I am no longer my son's caregiver. I miss his smiling face. But, know that he was in pain and that it was getting worse. Life is not as structured as it was. I try to keep busy, a busy mind for me keeps away the feel sorry for yourself feeling. It still comes at times, I think this is normal. If not I guess I am abnormal.

Thanks to everyone again for being there with me through the good and the sad times.